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Small flowers by the roadside (_itokanasikimonotachi_)

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Remembering doll photos like I used to take.

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The music used for the slides was

LesFreeMusic
Morning Light - Ambient Guitar (Royalty Free Music / No Copyright) Acoustic Background Music
SoundCloud

What did I consider beautiful?
After my wife's death, everything is hazy.
With the time that has passed, I have gradually begun to give myself over to a new routine...

Shot in a corridor with a window on one side. I had taken a number of life-size dolls in the same kind of place over and over again. That's what I told this beautiful person.  It was as if I had remembered something I had forgotten.

I guess everyone has their own territory. Even if I long for the world someone else lives in, it is a world that I have nothing to do with. Worshipping a distant light, that is probably the only thing that suits me.
Even if I dream of a light that is different from everyday life, I cannot set my silicone doll, which weighs over 20 kg, there.

何を美しいと考えていたのか。
妻の死後、何もかもがあやふやだ。
経過した時間と共に少しずつ新しい日常に身を委ねるようにはなってはいるのだが…。

片側に窓のある廊下での撮影。同じような場所で等身大ドールを何度も繰り返し撮っていた。それを、この美しい人にも伝えた。忘れていたものを思い出したようにも思いながら。

誰にでも、自分の領分というべきものがあるのだろう。別の人の住む世界に憧れても、そこは所詮自分には縁のない世界だ。遥か遠くの光を拝むこと、それくらいが自分には合っているのかもしれない。
日常とは異なる光を夢見ても、20㎏を超えるシリコンドールを連れて行って、そこへ据えてみることもできないし。