Photo3_dArKred

Small flowers by the roadside (_itokanasikimonotachi_)

Three-star bruise on forehead

(続き)

The music used for the slides was

Zachary Bruno
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SoundCloud

The morning shoot was completed with some reduction of colour transfer to the silicone body.
After lunch, a thin layer of baby powder was applied.
Changed the doll's costume to a white one to refresh the mood.
I put a glass ball on her palm.
I felt the fragility and sadness of the doll.
I can't put her in a costume that exposes this part of her body any more. I thought about that.
Because it was the body, I could make it invisible with a costume. If it were the head, there would be nothing I could do.
I thought about that too.
The sound of the rain, which had been intense, would eventually stop being heard and I could see the western sky brighten.

That was the end of today's shooting.
I started to clean up the doll.
I took off the clothes and removed the head.
As I was about to put it in the box, I noticed a blue bruise on the doll's forehead, like a line of three stars.
After the morning shoot, I washed my hands several times.
But between my fingernails, was there any dirt left behind?
I can only assume that there were dye residues that were not visible to the naked eye.
It may be similar to the way the smell does not disappear from fingers that have been stirred in bran, no matter how many times they are washed.
It would have stained even the beautiful head.
Where the wig barely obscures it.
I don't have a wig that exposes much of the forehead.
I realise that I can no longer try to lift her fringes.
I had to wipe away the bruise on the forehead and hope that it would become a little less noticeable.

シリコンボディへの色移りをいくらかは軽減させて、午前の撮影を終了した。
昼食後、ベビーパウダーを薄く塗布。
人形の衣装を白いものに変えて、気分を一新。
硝子球を掌へ載せてみた。
人形の儚さ、哀しさを感じた。
この部分が露わになるような衣装は、もう着せることはできない。そんなことを考えていた。
ボディだったから衣装で見えなくすることはできる。これが頭部だったら、どうしようもないな。
そんなことも思った。
激しかった雨音は、いつか聞こえなくなり、西の空が明るくなるのが分かった。

今日の撮影は、これで終わり。
人形の片づけを始めた。
衣服を脱がせ、頭部を外す。
それを箱に収めかけて、人形の額に、三つ星が並ぶように、青あざが出来ているのに気づく。
午前中の撮影の後、何度も手は洗った。
しかし、爪の間に、汚れが残っていたのだろうか。
肉眼では分からない染料の残りがあったと考えるしかない。
何度洗っても、糠床をかき回した手指からは、臭いがきえないのと同じようなものかもしれない。
美しい頭部まで汚してしまったことになる。
ウィッグで辛うじて見えなくなる場所。
額を大きく曝すようなウィッグは持ち合わせていないのだが。
前髪を上げてみることは、もうできないのだと思い知る。
額の痣を、拭き取りながら、少しでも目立たなくなるのを念じるしかなかった。