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Small flowers by the roadside (_itokanasikimonotachi_)

The second part of a demure beauty

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The second part of a demure beauty. However, the title is rather more appropriate here.

I have stopped watching television since my wife was alive.
My wife, on the other hand, loves television. She was particularly keen on dramas, and would always watch the first episode, and if she was interested, she would continue watching. Sometimes she would ask me, 'Why don't you watch TV when your favourite girl is on it?'
If it's an actress I like, I don't want to watch that drama. There were many times when my impression of the actress would be bad because of what I had seen. I never watched any type that sold purity or that I had such an impression of on my own.
There is no such thing as a pure being because they are flesh and blood. So what about dolls? Since there is a person who made it, this too cannot be pure and innocent. And when it comes to life-size silicone dolls, you can almost hear the squealing laughter that they are sex toys.
The existence of the pure and excellent is only a personal conception, and if you try to forcefully apply it to something that exists in reality, you will eventually become disillusioned. Still, I think it's OK to enjoy it as my own personal dream story by applying it to something else.

I had just finished shooting this doll, dressed in a young grass-coloured cami dress, and was about to put it away.
I felt somewhat reluctant to leave her behind, so I let her sit a little higher than in the first part of the film.
The light hit her differently and her eyes lit up.
I realised that this head also resembled that beautiful person, and from there, for a while, I contemplated a fleeting dream.

a demure beauty の後編。しかし、題名は、むしろこちらの方にこそ相応しい。

妻が生きているころから私はテレビを見なくなった。
それに対して妻はテレビ好き。特にドラマには目が無く、一応初回は必ず見ていて、興味があれば引き続いて観るというやり方だった。時々、「あなたの好きな子が出ているのに見ないの?」と尋ねることがあった。
好ましいと思っている女優なら、なおさらそのドラマは見たくない。見たために印象が悪くなるということが何度もあったから。清純さを売り物にしていたり、私が勝手にそんな印象を抱いているタイプは絶対に見ることはなかった。

生身の人間だからピュアな存在など、ありえない。では、人形はどうなのか。作った人がいるのだから、これも純真無垢というわけにはいかないだろう。まして等身大のシリコンドールにいたっては大人の玩具ではないかというせせら笑いさえ聞こえてきそうだ。
清逸な存在は、あくまでも個人的な観念にすぎなく、現実に存在するものに無理やりあてはめてみようとすれば、いずれは幻滅することになる。それでも、何かに振り当てて、私だけの夢物語として愉しむくらいは構わないのではないかと思う。

若草色のキャミドレスを着せたこの人形の撮影が終わり、一旦片付けかけたのだが。
なんとなく名残惜しい気持ちがして、前編よりも少しばかり高い位置へ座らせてみた。
光の当たり方が異なり、瞳に光が入った。
このヘッドは、あの美しい人にも似ているのだと気づき、そこから暫し、儚い夢を思い描いていた。